She feels the sound like a hum against her back, even weak as it is, and it makes her feel more steady. Her hand slips into his, so she can bring his hand up to kiss his knuckles gently.
You stayed, she thinks, breathing in the sleep-warmed scent of Fenris in the morning. Maybe it's pathetic of her to be able to think about things beyond her grief, or maybe this is how grief works; it's a tide, it comes and goes, it ebbs and and flows. It doesn't have Marian in its grip this morning, and so she can think of how she would give her left arm to wake up like this every day.
Beyond that, it's knowing that Fenris slept in a bed, a proper one, that pushes her to turn and face him.
"You should stay here," she whispers, once she's lying down facing him. No humorous quip, only honesty. "You don't have to be in bed with me, Maker knows this house has rooms to spare, but - live here, Fenris. It's grim to sleep so close to all the skeletons of your past."
Fenris is slow to wake given how little sleep he has had this night. He makes soft nonsense noises, does not pull his arm from around her waist. It is still limp where she raises it, but his fingers twitch when she kisses over his knuckles.
"....Haw..ke...?" Muzzy, rough with sleep. Fenris' deep voice rumbles against her back. He squints at her, too slow after only just waking to process the words entirely. His hair's a bit of a mess from where he's buried himself into the bedding to hide his face away from the growing light of day. "D'you...wish for me to leave your bed..?"
"No, love," she whispers, a little amused. She reaches up and brushes one unruly hair strand out of his eyes, because she has a momentary lapse and thinks Fenris would hate his appearance being messy. She has to make an effort to not lean in and kiss the side of his head by his temples, or his shoulder. "Quite the opposite."
A pause, a calming breath. "But, if that's what you need...If you want - if you don't want to be in my bed, Fenris..."
"...What?" He reaches up with his free hand to rub the sleep from his eyes, then squints up at her. "Are. Are we getting up or not?"
Right now he does not need anything if Hawke is well. He is here to tend to Her needs and at the moment happens to be quite comfortable. But he would drag himself from this soft warmth for her if she wanted something, of course he would.
"I'm..." A yawn. "I'm afraid I didn't catch most of whatever thoughts lead you here. I am comfortable at the moment. Do not worry of me."
Her touch turns more certain, though still tender. Fingertips brush over his cheek, down the curve of his jawline.
"I was telling you to move here," she finally cuts the silence to say. "It's warm and clean and safe, and I don't like the idea of just leaving you to haunt the halls and rooms of that mansion alone. I was telling you that if you need time, and don't want to share my bed - now, or ever - that's fine. The offer still stands. Maker knows we've got plenty of rooms."
"....Oh." Fenris does not sound terribly clever, thick from sleep as he is. He tries to blink some coherence into his head. There are reasons for him to refuse, of course, but in light of the last half a day they feel small and unimportant. There is no one left to share her home with her if not for Fenris.
No one that is not working for her at least.
"If...if that is what you wish, then I can certainly do so." It would make protecting Marian easier. Ensuring she does not punish herself needlessly for the loss she has suffered.
"I do not have many belongings to bring so it would not take long."
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You stayed, she thinks, breathing in the sleep-warmed scent of Fenris in the morning. Maybe it's pathetic of her to be able to think about things beyond her grief, or maybe this is how grief works; it's a tide, it comes and goes, it ebbs and and flows. It doesn't have Marian in its grip this morning, and so she can think of how she would give her left arm to wake up like this every day.
Beyond that, it's knowing that Fenris slept in a bed, a proper one, that pushes her to turn and face him.
"You should stay here," she whispers, once she's lying down facing him. No humorous quip, only honesty. "You don't have to be in bed with me, Maker knows this house has rooms to spare, but - live here, Fenris. It's grim to sleep so close to all the skeletons of your past."
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"....Haw..ke...?" Muzzy, rough with sleep. Fenris' deep voice rumbles against her back. He squints at her, too slow after only just waking to process the words entirely. His hair's a bit of a mess from where he's buried himself into the bedding to hide his face away from the growing light of day. "D'you...wish for me to leave your bed..?"
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A pause, a calming breath. "But, if that's what you need...If you want - if you don't want to be in my bed, Fenris..."
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Right now he does not need anything if Hawke is well. He is here to tend to Her needs and at the moment happens to be quite comfortable. But he would drag himself from this soft warmth for her if she wanted something, of course he would.
"I'm..." A yawn. "I'm afraid I didn't catch most of whatever thoughts lead you here. I am comfortable at the moment. Do not worry of me."
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"I was telling you to move here," she finally cuts the silence to say. "It's warm and clean and safe, and I don't like the idea of just leaving you to haunt the halls and rooms of that mansion alone. I was telling you that if you need time, and don't want to share my bed - now, or ever - that's fine. The offer still stands. Maker knows we've got plenty of rooms."
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No one that is not working for her at least.
"If...if that is what you wish, then I can certainly do so." It would make protecting Marian easier. Ensuring she does not punish herself needlessly for the loss she has suffered.
"I do not have many belongings to bring so it would not take long."